Who am I? I've been asking myself that question for 39 years. The easy answer is this: I am the mother to six children, two of them step-sons, two biological and two adopted. I am married to my partner of 7 1/2 years, Toni. I am very spiritual, I know that without God I am nothing. I am the daughter of Lanny and Jan, sister to Jeannie and James.
But that's not really WHO I am, that is more what I am. I feel that I know who I am, but sometimes that gets cloudy in my own head. I have fought depression my whole life. Sometimes I think I'm a pretty amazing person, strong, courageous, kind, considerate, compassionate, ready to take on the world. Other times all of that is squashed down and I feel weak, afraid, withdrawn, worthless. I know that I'm not those things, that is not "who Jill is". But when depression takes over you get lost in your own mind. It makes you feel crazy really, like you are two people fighting over "you". I hope to not only be able to figure out who I am in this blog, but to also help anyone out there who is struggling with the same thing.
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